Asher is doing well tonight. His steroids are making his lungs much happier, and we hope to see improvement in his oxygen requirement sticking around after the 3 day course of steroids. He's 26 weeks today and on Thursday will be 3 weeks old! He will also be getting even more milk starting today and into tomorrow. He will get about 80ml in 24 hr which is about 2 1/2 ounces I think. This is a huge difference from the 1cc he started off getting! He will also have a fortifier added to his milk to bulk up the calorie content. He will have this from now on, and may still need it when he goes home. We are just thankful for every day.
I have to quote a few friends now who said some profound things to me this week. One sweet friend was encouraging me in motherhood and said "It is done, you are a mother! Rise up, and wear that badge of honor proudly!" I love the simple-yet powerful truth of this. We don't have to wait for Asher to come home for parenthood to begin. I reflected recently on how we could have never met Asher or Titus. We could have lost them at 19 weeks when my water broke. Instead, God blessed us with one baby boy we get to be parents to right now. It's different than most first parents experience, but it's our story. And every family's story has the beautiful mixed in with the messy at one point or another. Choosing to embrace that is the key. And that's not easy everyday, but I'm praying for more and more grace from the Lord to be able to embrace our story with gratitude and thankfulness instead of seeing it as not complete or not perfect! Our story is just the way the Lord planned, and as my husband says "any kid who starts out his life with this much prayer and love will have a significant life and story.." -- we can't wait to see what the Lord has in store for Asher's life and we feel humbled that the Lord chose this beginning for our son.
Another sweet friend shared Psalm 150:6 with me "Let everything that has breath praise the Lord." She said "whether it's a deep breath, a breath assisted by a ventilator, or an unassisted breath, I praise the Lord for Asher breathing. Every breath."
Thank you for faithfully praying for Asher! We continue to feel so blessed by the love, support and messages we've received!