Journey to Parenthood

I want to be purposeful about journaling during this time in our lives as we watch our miracle micro preemie, Asher, continue to grow and thrive. I began this blog during my month of bed rest at the hospital while I was pregnant with Asher and his brother Titus. We continue to hope and trust the Lord for Asher's future. This blog begins with the story of how both of our boys came to be. They came about after many tears, many prayers, and many months of crushed hopes. On February 2, 2012, our boys Titus Bauer and Asher Mark were born at just 23 weeks and 2 days gestation. My water around Titus broke at 19 weeks, so his lungs were very underdeveloped. Titus lived 45 minutes and is now living a perfect life in heaven as he watches over his little brother Asher. Two and a half years later God redeemed our story of hurt with a precious full term baby brother for Asher. We are humbled by how the Lord has loved on us in our journey through parenthood.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Our Engagement Anniversary

We were reminded today that 4 years ago we got engaged. If you don't was quite the story! Bryan is a pilot..and we crashed trying to land at the runway in plano after he proposed. It was a very trying moment for not just us, but our family and friends as well. And God was so glorified in that, and we learned so much because we both walked away without a scratch from a completely totaled plane. God was faithful and good 4 years ago to make sure we would get married and have a future. He knew then this was in our future..4 years later I can say that we have fallen more in love with each other than ever before, and that we truly have become more of a team and have learned what it means to be married and attempt to die to yourself on a daily basis. Our marriage has been through a lot in 3 1/2 years. But God has been and is good in it all. He's been preparing us for this day- the one week birthday of our tiny premie miracle and the day that marks a week since our precious Titus went to be with Jesus. I'm so proud to be married to Bryan. He's more than a godly man. He constantly chooses the Lord's will. He constantly ministers to others regardless of what's happening in his life. He has constantly served me without hesitating, especially this last month. He is my rock, and a complete blessing. I could not do this life without him. Happy Engagement Anniversary Bryan! Love you!


  1. Dear Adams family,
    I am praying for your precious little Asher. And praying for you.

    With love and hugs,
    Abby Walsman

  2. Sweet Robyn,
    You don't know me, I was forwarded a link to your blog by one of my former antepartum nurses herein Lubbock. Your story brought tears to my eyes, from the very beginning. My story has so many parallels to yours and reading about your emotions brought back so many memories as if it was just yesterday. I too lost 2 babies very early before having success with IVF, I struggled with the "in between" feeling after you are considered a "normal" patient, and I was admitted to the hospital at 21 weeks pregnant with twin boys dilated to a 3 and contracting. I found strength in Hannah's Hope and Jeremy Camp's Walk by Faith. I know what it is like to pray so hard for each day and have to have the awful discussions of "saving one at the risk of another". Things a mother should never have to consider. I primarily work in nicu and I have often seen the other end of the struggle. While I was on antepartum, nicu lost 3 babies at 24 weeks as I was approaching about 26 weeks. I remember asking God why I was still there and other mothers were going through such sadness. It didn't make sense to me then, those mothers wanted their babies as much as I did, and surely they prayed as hard as I did, so why did God take their babies home?? All I can understand is that God's plan is perfect and there has to be some reason why mother's like you have to go through such grief, there has to be good that comes from loss. Maybe Asher will be a neonatologist someday and save little bitty lives,maybe you will go on to be a March of Dimes spokesperson, maybe someone reading your blog with be drawn closer to God because of your faith and grace. I will continue to pray for baby Asher and for baby Titus to watch over him as he grows big and strong. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you during this time! If you want to use your time while waiting on Asher to get bigger to write that book about the transition from an infertility patient to a "normal" one let me know and I would be glad to help you out!