Journey to Parenthood

I want to be purposeful about journaling during this time in our lives as we watch our miracle micro preemie, Asher, continue to grow and thrive. I began this blog during my month of bed rest at the hospital while I was pregnant with Asher and his brother Titus. We continue to hope and trust the Lord for Asher's future. This blog begins with the story of how both of our boys came to be. They came about after many tears, many prayers, and many months of crushed hopes. On February 2, 2012, our boys Titus Bauer and Asher Mark were born at just 23 weeks and 2 days gestation. My water around Titus broke at 19 weeks, so his lungs were very underdeveloped. Titus lived 45 minutes and is now living a perfect life in heaven as he watches over his little brother Asher. Two and a half years later God redeemed our story of hurt with a precious full term baby brother for Asher. We are humbled by how the Lord has loved on us in our journey through parenthood.

Sunday, March 18, 2012

An Example of the "Roller coaster" of the NICU

Here are Bryan's updates from this week!

Asher update: it's been a rough week. Sorry we haven't posted any updates in the last couple of days. There hasn't been a lot of positive things to share, and we've been emotionally exhausted.

Asher's had a difficult time recovering from his heart surgery. He developed something called P.I.E. which is essentially emphysema. If he were an adult it would be irreparable, but since his lungs are still developing they've allowed his lungs to stay collapsed to have time to heal. It's been hard to watch him struggle all week and to see him on so much oxygen. We really thought his lung issues were behind him so it's been frustrating to see him take such a major step back. However, the plan seems to be working. His right lung is still partially collapsed, but they are going to take out his breathing tube and see how he does on the CPAP again. This is pretty aggressive to go from the jet ventilator back to the CPAP, so we pray he does well! Thanks for all of your prayers!

Asher's doing much better today! He's off the ventilator and back on the CPAP and he's breathing pretty well! Thanks for all of your prayers! We can't explain how much all of your thoughts
and prayers mean to us!!!

Things change SO fast in the NICU. In one day we went from, "it could be 2 weeks before he's back on cpap" to "oh, he's back on!" We have to confess, we struggled a lot with faith and hope in God's plan this week for Asher's life. It was incredibly hard to see Asher struggle so much after surgery. We had been told that ups and downs are normal. We just had NO idea what that really meant. Asher's poor lungs are just so fragile and immature, and he is trying so hard to learn how to breathe long before he was meant to! We are thankful for a good day, and learning to be thankful for the bad ones...because without those, what makes the good ones so good and sweet?


  1. anxiously awaiting your update. thanks! still praying!

  2. Hi, I'm a friend of a friend and I just wanted you to know that my family, like so many others is thinking about and praying for you, your husband and your sweet little Asher. You have a beautiful family and you are a wonderful example of Believers. We too struggled with infertility and our second daughter was a twin, but we lost her twin early in the pregnancy. I look forward to the day I get to meet her in heaven. God bless your family!

  3. Hello! I am a fellow covenant member of The Village Church Flower Mound. I am in awe of you all and little Asher! How amazing you all are! I am also so thankful he is still alive and progressing, even though it must be incredibly rough. I want you to know that you are in my prayers and I will be keeping updated with him and praying along with you. Please know that you are a huge inspiration and are continuing to encourage so many! I have many health problems so I know how easy it is to feel like you can't be an inspiration because you are struggling so much yourself with God, but I want you to know that you all are. :) Thank you for your honesty. God bless you all!

    ~Mandy Morrison