Journey to Parenthood

I want to be purposeful about journaling during this time in our lives as we watch our miracle micro preemie, Asher, continue to grow and thrive. I began this blog during my month of bed rest at the hospital while I was pregnant with Asher and his brother Titus. We continue to hope and trust the Lord for Asher's future. This blog begins with the story of how both of our boys came to be. They came about after many tears, many prayers, and many months of crushed hopes. On February 2, 2012, our boys Titus Bauer and Asher Mark were born at just 23 weeks and 2 days gestation. My water around Titus broke at 19 weeks, so his lungs were very underdeveloped. Titus lived 45 minutes and is now living a perfect life in heaven as he watches over his little brother Asher. Two and a half years later God redeemed our story of hurt with a precious full term baby brother for Asher. We are humbled by how the Lord has loved on us in our journey through parenthood.

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Back to the Vent...and Psalm 30:11- Mourning to Dancing!

Asher is back on the vent. The cpap was just too much work for him. He doesn't have the muscle development yet to handle doing all that work on his own. It's a little step back, but we know he'll get back to the cpap when he's a little stronger. They did say it was amazing he was on it for 48 hours. I think it's unusual for a baby his size to be trying that already!

As we were singing a song at church last night...I had future images flash through my mind. Here's the chorus :

You take my mourning
And turn it into dancing
You take my weeping
And turn it into laughing

You bring restoration
You bring restoration.. To my soul

I had a vision of Asher dancing one day and laughing- what a sweet moment that will be!

" You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness, " (Psalm 30:11 ESV)


  1. I know everyone will tell you "Two steps forward and one step back" in the NICU. It is a very true statement. Always remember that even with the one step back, the two steps forward always equal progress and movement in the right direction! It is such awesome news that he was able to give the CPAP a shot for 48 hours...he will be back on it in no time!

  2. Maybe unusual for a baby his size... But he has a big big God on his side!! Thank you so much for sharing your heart with grateful Psalm 30 is and will be your testimony!!

  3. Hi there, you are a friend of a friend. My husband and I also went through years of infertility and I've been following your blog since seeing a prayer request on behalf of your family on Facebook. We've attended the Village Church on occassion (we live in HV) and I KNOW exactly the song you are speaking of. I can't even read the words without tears coming to my eyes and it speaking to that song. Please know there are soooo many people praying for Asher, you and your husband. Lobbying for strength everyday!