Journey to Parenthood

I want to be purposeful about journaling during this time in our lives as we watch our miracle micro preemie, Asher, continue to grow and thrive. I began this blog during my month of bed rest at the hospital while I was pregnant with Asher and his brother Titus. We continue to hope and trust the Lord for Asher's future. This blog begins with the story of how both of our boys came to be. They came about after many tears, many prayers, and many months of crushed hopes. On February 2, 2012, our boys Titus Bauer and Asher Mark were born at just 23 weeks and 2 days gestation. My water around Titus broke at 19 weeks, so his lungs were very underdeveloped. Titus lived 45 minutes and is now living a perfect life in heaven as he watches over his little brother Asher. Two and a half years later God redeemed our story of hurt with a precious full term baby brother for Asher. We are humbled by how the Lord has loved on us in our journey through parenthood.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Where We Sit Today

We have been here 2 1/2 weeks, and it's a blessing! We are praying for 2 more weeks, and then 2 more after that..and on and on until these boys are nice and big! Looking at time in 2 week chunks is easier to me than in months. :) We have gone through a lot of emotions, and mostly landed on being here one more day is a GREAT thing, because that means our boys are still doing well. Not that that is easy everyday..I do have to prep my mind each day for the life of bed rest and what I think I might do that day, or what might make that day stand out. Sometimes that may just be a visit from someone, washing and fixing my hair, having a sonogram, getting to go outside (only 2x a week right now) ...any little thing to make that day stand out, or be purposeful. And we have been so blessed SO much by our friends and family. It would be incredibly hard to go through this alone and without support.

So, we are just thankful, and waiting with expectant hope. We cling to the Truth posted all around our room and continue to pray for God to move and do big things in our hearts, and in developing the two boys inside me. Maybe the most simple verse that I have clung to over the past 2 years, and am still today is Mark 9:24-- "I DO believe! Help me with my unbelief!" Because most moments I do believe He's able, and will bless us. But I still need His grace often in other moments, because I do not know what the future holds. Bryan and I know regardless that God is GOOD, and does good, and that He is for us, NOT against us. (Romans 8:31)

Tomorrow we see the boys again and we get updated measurements of how they've grown in the last two weeks! We are also continuing to pray that some fluid shows up on the screen for baby A.
Thank you for whatever you have read of this blog- I know I am very long-winded...and more so we thank you for praying on our behalf. That is a blessing we never quite understood before this. There are many moments we feel and KNOW the prayers of the saints are carrying us!

1 comment:

  1. I love you guys so much and am continuously praying/pleading for God's mercy. These boys are already SO loved it's unreal. So proud of you and Bryan and how you have turned this from a tragic situation to an opportunity to make much of Him and know Him more. You two are such a HUGE inspiration to me I can't even put it into words. XOXO
    Kimberly :)