Journey to Parenthood

I want to be purposeful about journaling during this time in our lives as we watch our miracle micro preemie, Asher, continue to grow and thrive. I began this blog during my month of bed rest at the hospital while I was pregnant with Asher and his brother Titus. We continue to hope and trust the Lord for Asher's future. This blog begins with the story of how both of our boys came to be. They came about after many tears, many prayers, and many months of crushed hopes. On February 2, 2012, our boys Titus Bauer and Asher Mark were born at just 23 weeks and 2 days gestation. My water around Titus broke at 19 weeks, so his lungs were very underdeveloped. Titus lived 45 minutes and is now living a perfect life in heaven as he watches over his little brother Asher. Two and a half years later God redeemed our story of hurt with a precious full term baby brother for Asher. We are humbled by how the Lord has loved on us in our journey through parenthood.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Asher's First Birthday!

   "They celebrate Your abundant goodness and joyfully sing of your righteousness." 

Psalm 145:7

Asher's birthday was so sweet. It was very special to have all the people that love us and him the most in one room together! We did his dedication at the beginning. At our church, baby dedications are done in the home groups- with your smaller "church" family, the people who will be walking closely with you. So, his dedication was sweet, but filled with emotion. It was impossible to talk about his birth without some sadness. The day Asher and his brother were born was not "the best day of our lives" as many parents say about when their kids are born. It was one of the worst, if not the worst. But, everything after that day, there was something to celebrate. Slowly, over a year...we had more and more to celebrate than we had to mourn. Bryan visited Titus the morning of the party, and that was hard. I couldn't go. I told him I couldn't mix those two things in one day. I really wanted to focus on celebrating Asher. But, I am glad he went. He told Titus he was proud of him for giving his brother a chance. He told him we loved him and missed him. So, it was a party of mixed emotions. But, like I said- it was sweet! And we did celebrate and Asher was loved on...From a distance of course...we still had to be very careful of germs since we are not out of RSV/Flu season! And we know every birthday will get easier and easier. I think we all needed to feel all the emotions, it's part of the healing process. Everyone in that room was with us that night, or shortly after, so I think it was healing to cry a few "thankful" tears together. We are very blessed to be surrounded by wonderful, supportive, family and friends. There really aren't enough words to describe them. And then, we have all of our blog and FB friends showering us with love and prayers too! So, it's been quite the year expanding our circle of friends! It's been a blessing. It's been hard, many days I have told God I don't want this- but He gently keeps showing me why this plan, and this story for us is perfect and right. And how it's not about me or Bryan or Asher, it's all about Him. Thank you for reading, praying, and celebrating with us. Asher is God's child and a product of His mercy and grace, and the prayers of His faithful followers! 

I ordered the decorations from I loved being able to personalize the signs in the package! 


Monthly pictures

Dad is always SO funny 

Our sweet family of 3

Asher and the girls

My parents

Asher and the guys 

My aunt and uncle- Mary and Michael 

Steven and Tameka 

Bryan's Family 

Trying out presents...

Can't get the smiles with the big camera in his face! 

Had to include this- his beautiful Gammers keeping him from falling! Such a great assistant! 

In his great-grandmother's rocking chair 

Dear Asher,
Happy FIRST Birthday!!!!! You have grown into such a big boy! We LOVE watching you grow, learn, and interact with us. This month you fully switched from sleeping in our room to sleeping in your crib in your room like a BIG boy. It's been so fun for you to finally use your room. You are getting better and better at sitting and I know you will do it on  your own any day now. You are also ROLLING like a crazy person. You roll across the living room now! It's so fun to watch. AND, you stop every now and then and play on your tummy- YAY!  (You've never been a fan of tummy time.) And now when I unbuckle you in the carseat, you arch your back and push yourself out of the carseat. You shocked me the first time you did that! You have places to go and people to see I guess! You got your fourth tooth so now you have two on top and two on bottom. You have also tried some different foods like white potatoes, blueberries, zucchini, avocado, and some crunchy snacks. You really like new things when it comes to eating, and you are really wanting to do it yourself more and more. Some days you want to eat more than others and we are just praying that one day it will all click for you. You have so many facial expressions now! Your therapists love to see all the faces you make. You have this cheesy grin face you make now where you scrunch up your whole face. I need to get a picture of it! You are such a joy and a happy baby. Everyone always compliments on how good and content you are. And you are still a great sleeper, which we LOVE. Also this month, you are having more conversations with us. You will make a noise, then we will, and you will wait for us to do ours, then you make a noise back. It is so funny! You like to put yourself to sleep too. I try to sing to you and cuddle you and you just want to break free! Then, when I put you down, you snuggle with your lovie blankets, roll around, and put yourself to sleep. You are getting to be such a big boy. We love you so very much, and we are so thankful to be your parents!! 

Mommy and Daddy

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